Science

if we challenge
the formula
for escape
maybe we'll find someway to get out together
or maybe we'll stay stuck
at this velocity, however,
if we don't choose an exit 
we're going to crash
and burn
our remainders proving
that no matter how many theories we have
the only real conclusion
is that we're here (now)

vigil on!

Some machines breath
they sigh
What they know is death
and what they've learned is from observation

the house breaths too
it shrinks
pieces falling in the void
and then jumping back
each time snapping
the ones inside feel it
(terrifying)
but it would be rude to scream
so they sway
and sing
and wait

I'm going to remind you of someone

He was  rock star high
(permanently)
I can still see the places we flew
from roof to roof

So we're sitting here in the grass
you're saying things
commenting on how I look new
how I don't remind you of the past
you looked into my eyes
and whispered a promise
about your kisses being a symbol of loyalty
something about being honest and together
It was an accident
but I yawned
before I said that was sweet
and smiled at how much you remind me of everyone

I have no poetry for you today

I was on the phone for an hour

and a half

with a girl I have never had a conversation 

beyond you go, and you rock, and see ya later

and in phone time

that's a long time

and I know it wasn't a real conversation

because I was trying to figure out

all the things I could do and still be there

to say yeah?

of course

and I agree

And you would think if it was one of those one sided talks

that it did not affect me

but while she was talking 

I was collecting her words

and listening

and calculating what to say 

when it was needed 

and I was being changed 

She told me her stories 

and I recorded them:

I can see the life I would have

I can smell the cake batter

I can see us laughing 

puzzling, and talking of matters of the heart

because that's what we did

In my mind I tell myself I would be happy

I know I'd be happy 

In my mind it's all happy

but for four years

he was leading a double life

She went on to talk about figuring out herself

and in the end she thanked me

and promised to call again

and she was gone

feeling relief

I suppose

for having someone else lift the burden 

of caring her tears

and her past 

she left me with a new piece in my heart

something borrowed 

and exhausted