Thinks

instead of acting out loud ideas
 I thought about bringing the thoughts together
into quiet meaningful words
  I thought about whispering straight truths
Instead of playing with games and hard chemicals
 I thought about changing each complicated moment
into a sweet fleeting honest thing
I thought about using numbers
and logic
and definitions
to say what I mean
I thought about never deviating from the planned attack
or the written goals
or expectation

You asked me a question, and I smiled
and thought about telling you the truth