How much?

i can't be paid to scream
but it's my career of choice


Loud and vicious.
heart wrenching and cold
fist clenching and iron
tearing and ceramic


I used to  do it often
daily even
on the hour
and then there came The Questions
only answerable with sighs, and gasps
not at all a satisfied and more and more craving
the loud
crashing, burn, of an indefinite howl
or an escapeing screech
opening the windows so more can hear..

but The Questions have a better idea
:hide your head in our pillow
in our brown bad
we'll discover
                      and translate
                      and disect
                      and Understand
your secrets.

I can't be paid to scream.
 but I can't be bought either.